True Love or Family?

Ok so recently I have been feeling like crap… and pretty depressed… I suck with women! Most of you know that one of my long term goals is to get married and start a family. Well it would help if I could get a girl friend first. But again I suck with women… they just want to be friends… or my so-called friend at my last command, sleeping with a girl that I liked and telling me to keep trying!! So basically I have been thinking that I don’t have any thing to live for… (Not that I am going to comet suicide or any crap like that) I have been feeling that I might die on my first deployment like I am not supposed to come home. So maybe I am not meant to get married, or ever feel true love. But while I was home I realized I have every thing to live for… I have a great family 3 awesome nieces and 3 kick ass nephews!! 2 sisters that I can talk to about any thing a mom that will love me even when I screw up so bad every one else can’t look at me and a dad that I have learned so much from! And that is not even including my brothers’ in-law or grand parents! And not to mention my friends back home! Even though we don’t always get along they are closer to me than any one outside of my family! They are always there for me when I need to talk when I need to destroy something ;D I am glad I got to come home and realize that I have every thing in the world to live for and I can’t wait to come back from my first deployment and see all of them again... Alive!! And living life to to fullest every day!


OORAH!! Simper-Fi